January 4, 2011

• Anyone know if 2011 came with a gift receipt?

  Posted by Sammy

  January 4 2011

  9:15pm cst from la casa de rawley

   

  Well this sucks. Pretty much all there is to say. People often tell me when we have cancer show back up they dont really know what to say. I understand that. You want to say something...anything. People want to help. As cynical as many of us can be from time to time deep down I believe there is good in people, and I know many good people. But you struggle to find words...something that is meaningful, helpful, but doesnt sound trite, assuming, or condescending. Something heartfelt or real that doesnt sound like it came of a Hallmark card or motivational poster. I get it. Its cool. But really its simple. You can say "this sucks". That covers it....because cancer sucks. And we get to deal with it again. And that sucks. And that is what you can say. 

  So we spent most of today sitting. At the computer. Waiting. See they scheduled the biopsy stuff for late next week and that creates problems on multiple levels. It also bothers Dr. B who wants it done ASAP so we have the evaluation moved to this week...just waiting on the biopsy which will hopefully be moved as well. Meanwhile I hit the road (or air I suppose) for Ohio tomorrow. Heading back for a whirlwind trip of bringing stuff home and back, conducting our concert which has already been postponed twice. Besides who doesnt love Christmas music in January? (hey Epiphany isnt until this weekend...that means we're still in the 12 days of Christmas! yeah they come after, not before). Then back here for the biopsy at some point. Woooo. Actually Im glad to be able to do the concert. Im blessed to be surrounded by a super supportive group of administrators, teachers, parents and students at my school so it will be good to be able to see everyone and make some music before we get down to business here. I guess that points me toward where we are so fortunate...so many friends and family at home calling, emailing and whatnot offering support and prayers and some absolutely wonderful friends down here who do more than they realize or have to to make this more bearable. 

  Guess I should go pack. Need to bring some stuff home and such. Wonder if Ill get to go through the awesome new TSA machines tomorrow. Would it be inappropriate for me to ask for a framed copy of my scan if I do? I really think its only a matter of time before someone runs through security stark naked in protest. It wont be me though. Im sure it would be frowned upon if not a valid statement. Maybe I could have my scan turned into one of those big cardboard cutouts and could put it in the garage???? Ok Ill stop. Night all. 

  Sammy

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